I’m having a gum graft surgery on Thursday. I’m super nervous.
I know I shouldn’t be: it’s something super routine, it won’t even take an hour, and the recovery time is 10 days. I shouldn’t be worried about it at all.
But I am.
I can’t really explain why, but mostly I think it’s the fear of the unknown. Basically, they have to cut out a piece from the roof of my mouth to cover up some gum damage that won’t heal on its own. The roof of my mouth takes the longest to heal. I’ll be better in 10 days and I won’t have to worry anymore about my tooth rotting or falling out.
As I look ahead trying to plan my projects, coordinating my work life, commute, dog life, wife life, and all of my personal goals, I find that I keep putting it off until “the next thing” is taken care of. I don’t want to plan any goals or make any commitments until my 10 days of recovery are over, and by then we already have another plan that has to happen before my personal goals can take priority.
New goal: make my goals a priority.
Sure, there will always be outside commitments that I have to take care of, I have responsibilities and social obligations, but no one else will make me a priority except for me. I need to recognize and allow my goals to be a priority and be okay saying “no” to some of the other obligations I fall into.
I can also use my mouth hurting as a valid reason to not talk to anyone: if anything, this surgery is a gift because I’ll be able to achieve some of the reading and writing goals that I have set for myself this weekend.
Just like this surgery, my fear of the unknown is what keeps stopping me from writing, it’s what stops me when I’m partway through a piece and causes me to question myself. I just have to keep going with the theme I’m living out this year:
Just because it’s not perfect doesn’t mean it’s not worthwhile.
In the long run, these little imperfect pieces (or gum grafts, or new-recipe-fails, or dying houseplants, etc.) will be stepping-stones towards the success that I’m trying to have in my life. Practice makes perfect, right?
Thanks for reading! Thank you for following me along in my journey towards Imperfection. Please share with me the obstacles that you find in the way of your journey towards your goals, we can make this journey together!