As always with my perfectionism, I feel discouraged by the fact that I haven’t been keeping with my goals on this blog. I’ve only been posting intermittently, instead of on the regular track that I had set for myself.
There’s always a reason, right? I got busy, I don’t have wifi in my apartment so I can’t post it or look up inspiration, I have laundry and cooking and a family to take care of. Then the doubts creep in: do I want to be this vulnerable? Am I even a capable writer? I’m probably going to fail, if I can’t keep to a schedule then there’s no way I’ll succeed. Do I even want to do this?
The answer to the last question is: of course I do. I’ve always wanted to write. What’s stopping me? Fear, mostly. I’ve also fallen out of the habit of writing. But that’s the point of this blog: to push me to move past my fears and finally get the practice I’ve been looking for and get myself out there. Go me!
So here we are the third week of 2020. Here’s what’s been keeping me so busy: I have a husband and two dogs, I commute an hour to work and then work10 hour days. I want to read a lot and I tend to do that rather than write. I’m trying to get back in shape and that takes time as well. Also, it’s winter and miserable and cold and uninspiring outside. As mentioned in a previous post: I live in Michigan and our winters are pretty damn bleak.
In spite of all of this, I’m not giving up. Thanks for sticking with me through this journey! What are your goals for 2020? What struggles have you had so far? Let’s go through this experience together!